A Matter of Being

Romans 8:11; "If the spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit who dwells in you."

This verse pushes me outside my comfort zone, this verse makes me feel excited and frightened at the same time. Paul not only says that the spirit of the Lord who rose Jesus from the dead, he states it twice so that the Romans do not miss it. Multiple things said over and over always seem to mean something is important, you mother reiterating to you as a child that the stove is hot and to not touch it, your driving instructor telling you where the brake is.

We put God in a box all the time, whether that box is our own feelings of inadequacies or our perception of the inadequacies of others. We see God in our present self, we see God going to work for 8 hours a day and coming home. Everything that we have done in our life, whether it is cooking, sports, art, music, whatever there is a mental note stating what we can and cannot do. Therefore our mind interprets this is what God can do, although there are way to many spots in the Bible that show God can do incomprehensible things.

So what do we want? Do we want a God that is just like us? Do we want the God of the Burning bush and parting the red sea? What do we want? Exactly. Amen. We do not know, and here in lies the beauty of the Trinity, we get it all, we get a God that is powerful, yet tender. A God that can move mountains and make the rocks cry out. We also get Jesus in human form healing the blind and sick. God knows that our human mind cannot comprehend him, he understands that, we do not, this is the marathon, this is the seeking of Yahweh, a journey through a corn maze where you get turned around and stuck and frustrated yet you keep searching, and every once in a while you get to see a piece of the puzzle and in that moment it is serene.

It sickens and breaks my heart when I feel too overwhelmed to pray, The God who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in me, the God in the burning bush, the God who conquered DEATH, dwells inside of me and yet I see my own falsified limitations not to be able to pray to the God of the Universe and my Abba. For this I am sorry Yahweh. Pray to the invisible God because he is ever more visible outside of our own perception. Amen